Autumn's coming...

It’s been rainy these days…turning to autumn. A girl student told me today she thinks autumn is a romantic season. Awww… I don’t know…In fact it’s pretty much a state of mind. That Martin guy’s leaving me messages online still doesn’t make me feel anyhow romantic. But you know, while I was walking alone on the street in the very noisy big Taipei City, I sort of felt it’s perfectly peaceful, and romantic... *smiles* Too bad I was not poetic enough—should have written something for such a beautiful mood, you know.

Yesterday evening I went choir practice as usual. We have a performance this Saturday morning, but I will not be there. :( Since tomorrow morning we will have Teachers-Parents Day at school, and the homeroom teacher, moi, is the most important role right there in the classroom. *sob sob* Hey it’s Friday…and I have to sleep early for this situation! No fun…I would like to spend more time watching something interesting, or chatting online more with my friends on a Friday evening! Anyways, the other members in the choir were like ehh… :O after they heard me say, ‘urm sorry I am not to sing with you tomorrow.’ I wish I could. There will be other performances in September and October—I think I can attend the others. As for the PT Day, of course we homeroom teachers hope parents can come, the more the better. I told students in class: ‘hey tell your parents to come and see your homeroom teacher. I am to wear a mini skirt and a very sexy blouse tomorrow!’ Well, kids understood me enough to know I was just kidding. *chuckles* Honestly speaking I have planned what to wear for this meeting—in black, like a pro. ( or a witch? :P LOL~ )

Should learn some French

It’s so cool today that we didn’t turn on air con at school all day, guess it’s going to be autumn soon. In the classroom we still used fans, but I turned them off when kids were taking a nap after they had lunch. I don’t want any of them to get a cold. :P Today we finished watching The Butterfly Effect and another movie Mean Girls in class. The former is more interesting I think. The idea is whatever one does, how trifle it might seem to be at that moment, the outcome is critical, just like what Buddhism said, ‘It’s the cause and the effect.’ The other movie is talking about something happened in an American middle school. You know…a lot of bs. :P I don’t mean I always talk seriously though—in fact I talk lots of bs too, LOL~ Remember I work in a middle school! :PI mentioned that there are 2 new students in my class this semester. Then I asked the girl what her English name is. She said, Simone, and it’s from French. Erm…honestly speaking I didn’t know how to pronounce this name. I know Yvonne is from French too and I know its pronunciation. So I asked her how to pronounce it and she said it for me. Hmm…you know what, it sounds like the terms: ‘she’ ‘moan’ :P Anyway…I am always happy to learn something new. :D

Feeding Xixi

I was feeding Xixi--the cat I mentioned in the blog below, in my neighborhood. You can tell how happy he was by his tail.

Butterfly Effect

So I went to bed earlier last night. :D It’s nice that I didn’t feel sleepy at school. We teachers can stay in our offices and take a nap if we are sleepy—it’s allowed, you know. Once my friend working in another country told me it’s not allowed for them to nap in the office. I kind of…err…you know, felt ‘ woo~ lucky, I work here!’ And in class we watched the first VCD for The Butterfly Effect, which is not too bad, in fact…some interesting point of views there. People would rather forget about something too tragic for their minds? Yeah I think so… We will finish watching the second VCD, and then can discuss it in our class meeting tomorrow afternoon. Sometimes those kids inspire me, and I do think the Chinese saying ‘jiao4 xue2 xiang1 zhang3’ ( You also learn something while you teach others. ) is correct.

In the evening I went out for food shopping at a supermarket nearby. They have ice cream and bing1 bang4 on sale! So…I took my handbag and happily walked out…and…it started to rain ( not heavily ) on my way to the supermarket. Well, to be or not to be? Pondering for a while, the desire to get tasty snacks won. I got what I would like—lemon flavored potato chips, watermelon bing1 bang4 ( what’s the English term ), pudding bing1 bang4, honey milk jelly… oh yeah and a pair of rubber glove, 2 packs of cat food—can feed xixi, a cute stray cat in the neighborhood. 302 NT paid, I carried 2 bags happily and found…err the rain’s getting a bit heavier. Ok then. I remember the poem Walking In The Blue Rain, so I walked in a very romantic mood…slowly on the street in Taipei. Hahahaha~ :P In fact it’s acid rain here. I went take a shower as soon as I got home. Life is peaceful again after I made up my mind earlier to live a nun’s life. Yes… I hope it’s a brand new beginning, a world without so much trouble for me. :D

Sleepy Monday

Yeah I know it’s past midnight here, and I don’t wanna stay awake at this time of the day! But what can I do…my best friend WW was talking with me not long ago on the phone—I just cannot leave my good friend alone when she has some problem and needs someone to talk with. After our conversation I got the second wind…hehehe that’s why I am still online blogging. -_-“ Well she just got married and now the couple have separated for 10 days, you know. It’s damn cruel… Of course WW feel very bad, and so does her husband. Moreover, there is a voyeur around. I can imagine how hard life is for her now due to the stress and horror. So I do think it’s a good decision when she told me she has asked a real estate agent, erm not Martin ok, to come to her place and see how soon her house can be sold. The location of her house is very nice, in the centre of Taipei City, so it costs around 10,000,000 NT. With this money she can live a comfortable life in Vancouver I think. She asked me if she’s right to do so…sell the house and move to Canada, which seems so strange to her. I told her it’s correct because her husband is there, and it’s not that difficult since Canada is an English speaking country—my friend’s English is as good as mine. ( or as bad as? LOL~ ) If I were her, I would do the same. I never think it’s a good idea to live separately for a couple. Honestly speaking I kind of think it’s fine with me to keep single for the rest of my life. Yeah I know you guys will say ‘wah what a waste!’ ‘isn’t never give up your motto? Flo’ to me. :P I don’t mind being single or being a nun. *chuckles* But once I have to get married, I wanna live with my husband! For WW and me, any English speaking country is all right, I guess. What if the guy’s from other countries like Japan, or France, or Germany? Urm…in fact I still don’t think it’s a problem to learn a new language. LOL~ Now then you know how optimistic this teacher is? :P ( And you guys don’t assume like this: ‘oh wow Flo is to find a bf in other countries; any country will do!’ ) However, I am happy for my best friend—she can find the One who loves her deeply and she has the same feelings for him. I pray for them…hope they can get together pretty soon, in the near future. ( I also hope I still look beautiful at work tomorrow, I mean today…oh my God I am awake around 1 a.m.!!! :O )

Ps. Due to some weird reason I cannot post my blog, cannot reply emails either, and I decide not to wait but to crash…*yawns…* It’s 1:10 a.m. now…wo wan dan le…

Voyeurism :O

This Saturday I went pay my best friend, WW, a visit. She went traveling in Vancouver this summer vacation with her boyfriend, and they got married there. Congratulations! They spend a few weeks in Canada and then my friend came back since her school would start too—she’s a homeroom teacher like me. Her new-wed honey stays in Canada to find a job and prepares for their future life. They will be located in Vancouver next year after WW quits teaching—which means I will have a good reason to visit Vancouver on my vacation in the future. :D

Since her birthday is coming, I brought a chocolate cake with budding and cream inside the layers ( woo~ yummy! ), and the birthday present for her is the CD which I burned—the video clips were taken by me on the opening day for the couple’s artwork earlier in July. Of course I could tell WW was very happy for this unexpected gift, and she immediately play the CD…awww the way she looked at her husband in the vid clips…hahahahaha~ the photo below was taken in front of her pc—I know I know…it’s blurry. But it means a nice memory. WW and I became very good friends since the first year when we studied in NTNU; she’s very pretty, intelligent, kind-hearted, and I am so proud to have such an excellent friend.

But being good looking might bring some trouble as well. The reason I came home very late last night was I kept her company in the police station near her place. How come? Her bedroom and bathroom were installed spy cameras when she was in Vancouver—the suspect is the plumber who came to her place fixing some stuff for her not long ago. He showed his admiration to my friend…well, too bad WW has someone she’s in love already. Anyway it’s unfortunate to get into trouble like this, and disgusting too—hey try to imagine the situation someone would peep while we are changing clothes or taking a shower! She’s lucky enough to find the cams soon…God blesses her! Otherwise she’d be like some celebrity in TW a few years ago who was also spied on by her ex bf and friends. So my friend will be busy in the near future being called to the police station and the court. I will pray for her, and hope everything can be settled down as soon as possible.

WW and me

My best friend WW and me at her place, taken on Sep. 4, 2004.

Let's call it a week...

Awww, my friends told me I made some mistakes in my last blog—I used wrong English terms in the context. In fact I did it on purpose; I wanna know if you guys care for me enough and if you read carefully enough to find them. And if you bother to tell me and correct them for me. LOL~ You 2 did a good job this time. Next time when I feel neglected I would make some more mistakes in vocabulary, verbal phrases, sentence structures, and maybe I will make it in Chinese. It’s much easier for me to blog in Chinese for sure…and I will see if you can find the mistakes in the Chinese context. :D hahahaha~ ok I am joking. Thank you very much, Icemonki and Kenny. I appreciated it and hope my English can be brightened up because of your help. :)

This week is awfully hectic. Being a homeroom teacher I have to finish so many tasks asked by both bosses and parents. You know I seldom switch off my cell phone—the one for ‘degree 2’. Thanks God all my kids cooperate with me beautifully ( even maybe they are just pretending…hehehe ), and I can finally say TGIF! As for the cell phone for ‘degree 3’, previously I didn’t charge it as it ran out of battery. Earlier this week I got it charged and it’s been in the silent mode—you can guess what happened, right? Yes…the real estate agent, Martin, called me from time to time, and of course I didn’t answer it. He also sent me sms. *chuckles* Let me translate the latest one into English—it’s not that mushy. If I talked about the mushy ones, heh...guess I would throw up first. :P ‘Flo, in the nothing-to-do afternoon, it’s always being so slow and boring! You are so addicted to coffee... Let the smell of coffee fill up the afternoon! Do you have an impulse to sneak out, have a coffee, and chat? I invite you sincerely and hope to know when you have free time. Martin.’ Feel free to laugh. ( Well I had a good laugh right after I got this sms. ) What shall I reply? ‘Err…you mean to go out and have a 35 NT coffee with you? :D ‘ *falls laughing again* hahahahaha~ He does have a lot of nerve, no? I don’t understand guys I guess. :P

I really don’t. Yesterday evening I went practicing with the choir. The choir leader came pick me up. He has been my friend since we both were students in middle school. Yeah I know his personality is passionate—he’s always very friendly to people. He’s married for quite a few years. When I sit in his car, he takes my hand, rubs my skin and sometimes puts my hand near his lips. I am confused…since another friend of mine, who’s married too and has a new born boy, also held my hand tight when his wife was not present. @_@ I look so delicious or what…? Last night the choir leader even asked me for a hug, and I tried to dodge by saying: ‘hey no good…the weather’s so hot that I sweat a lot.’ But he came hugged me from behind when I was not paying attention—and the other choir members were around. Being a bit embarrassed, I laughed and said, ‘ok I look too pretty.’ And they laughed too. So it’s more or less, just like what my Shi Xiong said, the bad ‘tao hua’. Certainly I will still try my best to keep it away from me—bai tuo ni men bu yao lai zhao wo bah!!!

Sure they would complain :P

Good! It’s September again… I am singing Brother Four’s ‘Try to Remember’. *chuckles* Yeah… some students met me during break time at school and complained to me: ‘How come you don’t teach us this semester!’ Well…school changed teachers all the time—one class in the eighth grade and the other in the ninth are not taught by me this semester. Well…somehow I think I am glad to hear such complaint from time to time. :P Anyway I am so used to it that it’s easy to deal with such situation: ‘I am not at fault, dear kids…I wish I could teach you all, you know!’ LOL~ ( sure I do…I wanna make more money. )

Another event for today: my Shi Jie came visit me this morning when I had no sessions to teach. She brought me a present: a big box of fruit-flavored jelly. :D~ very nice snack I think. It’s very kind of her…and always generous. I treated her nice, iced honey green tea at a bubble tea shop nearby—of course it’s time for sharing our lives. She told me an accident happened not long ago: her husband was to get off the car and the car door happened to hit an old folk riding on a scooter. The guy said he didn’t think there’s anything wrong with his body. But my SJ insisted to send him to the hospital and had a careful check—lucky they did, otherwise that guy might die of internal bleeding in his head and my SJ’s husband would be in big trouble. So…we had better be alert and take a look while we are to get off our cars, in case someone or something coming near is to hit us or to be hit by the door.

I then told my SJ my ‘adventures’. She asked me directly: ‘You tell me if you are seeing that real estate agent guy (Martin) first.’ I said no. Then she seemed relieved…and then told me she didn’t feel good, even a bit dizzy and was like throwing up as I told her what happened on my 1st and 2nd meetings with Martin. She was wondering for quite a while if she should tell me the bad sign, for she didn’t wanna ruin my mood if I was dating him happily. I laughed and told SJ: hey just tell me directly anytime! We are very good friends and I know my SJ has strong 6th sense also. Therefore, I appreciate it when she is giving me some good advice. *smiles* I know my family and my good friends wouldn’t like me to date improper guys. Well…they don’t need to worry. He wanna make me smitten? Hehehe…not easy… :P

Back to school and get busy again

Today is the second day of this new semester. Yeah I didn’t have enough energy for blogging last night. *chuckles* Now then you know a teacher is also good at finding excuses huh. :P So I am still the homeroom teacher; the only difference is my students are in the 8th grade—too bad they don’t look much taller, and maybe that’s because I am very tall comparing to most Taiwanese. That’s all right…I’ll keep on encouraging them to eat well and exercise more. Well, the only thing that makes me sad is I cannot make as much money as last semester. L Since we teachers get fixed pay, but if we teach extra hours, we can get some extra pay. School doesn’t give me extra hours to teach, and I will lose around 3000 NT a month from now on. *sobbing…*

Anyway, life goes on. But not my favorite series on TV—the Peak of the Forbidden City had its last play last Sunday. The girl Shadow, who couldn’t forget about the guy Scorpio although she misunderstood him, finally left Sunny, the guy who always had a liking for Shadow since long ago, and went for Scorpio. The most touching scene was when Shadow was looking at Scorpio’s picture and missing him badly, Sunny came and consoled her that everything would be fine with his always warm smile. Shadow then cheered up after Sunny told her he’d take her to find Scorpio the next day. Then…Sunny turned and walked away, his facial expression looked so lonely…so sad, for he was the one left out. I am not to sound sentimental, you know. My motto is ‘never give up’, but it’s not to be applied for the romantic field! Just let go, and move on. :D Always something fun and surprising along the way—but I don’t want the ‘pay cut off’ surprise at all!!! :O

Spring Rolls :D~

Time to say goodbye to my summer vacation in 2004. I did have a lot of fun these 2 months, hanging out with good old friends, making new friends--some are nice and others are creepy. Like having adventures, I went out to meet them, and then acknowledge that I do keep high standards and high morals. LOL~ ( you know it's difficult to kick a habit which has been formed long ago. :P )

Last night I got the real estate agent's message with 2 symbols. He would know what I am thinking about ( the relationship stuff ) and how come he cannot call me recently. Well...one thing I can't understand. If he's that good as what he has bragged to me, that he can make big money for he's able to understand what his customers really need, why can't he figure it out that I am sick of 'words- speak- louder- than- actions' guys? I chatted with my mom this afternoon and asked her so. My mom lied on the sofa comfortably and listened to my blah blah...about this boring guy's behavior. Finally she said, it's normal...he is judging and he pretty much doesn't want to invest in 'you'. Ah...to the point, isn't it. As for the 2 symbols, the 1st is 2 big diamond rings--one for you and the other for me, to tie us up. The 2nd is a dozen of chocolate. Very well...how come I never saw such presents while we were meeting? :P LOL~ I wish I could have some nice chocolate, like Godiva--the very famous and expensive ones. So I know, and you know also, that my mom is right. He'd better give the idea up as soon as possible, move on, and find another woman who's desperate enough to be his girl friend. :D Good luck to you, although I don't think you are a nice friend of mine, Martin.

Oh the picture above is our lunch today--spring rolls! My mom is an excellent cook, and the spring rolls ( I got vegetarian ones ) are very tasty! Too bad--the daughter is too dumb to cook well though. :P ( bu hao yi si ah...)

Me and my dear Justy :D

Today is Saturday, and of course we don’t have school on the weekend. So it’s relaxing…I went out for a walk with my family, and I saw my cute baby Justy—the red car my dad gave me when he bought another car. I didn’t buy or rent a parking space near my place, and you know it’s not always easy to find a place to park your car in Taipei. So it’s necessary every time for me to pray like this when I drive home: oh dear Lord…please let me find a good place to park my Justy! :D It costs around 25000 NT to rent a parking place for a year—no cover above, mind you. And no guard to watch the place. That’s why I don’t wanna make my dear Justy look too shining or got some beautification. But I often wash my car to keep it clean and Justy should be happy for that… :P

Mooncake :D~

hey don't look at me but the stuff in my hands! On the right it's a small tea-flavoured mooncake! And the other is a feng4 li2 su1 ( pineapple tart? sorry not sure about the English term for it ). I got them in the vegetarian bakery, where I used to buy buns and cookies. They have many other flavours, and I think it's pretty cool especially as I make some nice hot Chinese tea while eating them. :D~ welcome back to Taiwan! *chuckles*

The cute statue

This is the cute statue I bought only yesterday! :D You see His ears! Very big and they mean ' a lot of good luck'. :D ah...no wonder, I finally understand why I don't like skinny guys now. all my exs were skinny and they didn't bring me any good luck! so yeah...the suitors around me had better figure it out themselves they must try hard to look like a lucky guy first. otherwise I'll just keep a safe distance from them. LOL~

Antique lover?

Well…I went out to meet friends in the early afternoon, and then I decided to pay my SX a visit. He called me earlier and said he’s going to run his own business—to sell tea leaves and teapots and cups. In fact the first day of his business is on Sep. 1st. But I won’t have spare time to visit him there since I have to stay at school and work VERY HARD. :D

So I took MRT again to his place, which is near Taipei Main Station. His place is not big—since it’s in the central area of Taipei City. I saw a lot of cute teapots and cups!!! I love them… *sob sob* You know I would like to buy some if I had a lot of money…too bad, right? SX and I chatted happily while eating the vegetarian Guo Tie ( no idea what the English term for it -_-“ ) I bought. He made some tea but it tasted awful because of the water, which is the side effect of Typhoon Aere. We talked about the things that happened these days in our lives—his colleagues, my suitors, and so on. LOL~ I told him about the latest ones, the architecture and the real estate agent, who are weird and way too desperate. He advised me that I’d better not get involved in a few years, since they are only ‘lousy tao hua’ for me. I nodded. SX also knows that my ‘yuan feng’ is not coming yet. Hehehe~ Finally, I couldn’t resist his charm…I decided to take him home—a very lovely 彌勒佛, which is made of the earth Zi Sha.
The price is 3600 NT. Ahh…. I know, I know. :P

Typhoon Day II

All government offices and schools in Taipei remain closed today because of the typhoon Aere. Banks and financial markets are shut as well. Lucky the place where I live has nothing destructive like flash-floods, landslides, or mud and rock slides. Thanks goodness, and my parents. They did choose a house with good Feng Shui. :D As usual I got up very early, thinking if I should go out to get the newspapers while watching the strong wind and heavy rain outside. Yes, you’re right. I decided to go. Well…maybe ‘sneak out’ is the term. :P For my other family were still sleeping sound because of the cool weather. So I put on my black mini skirt, took my strong umbrella, and walked into the typhoon. I admit that I did feel a bit scared when I saw the gusting winds and torrential rains! My skirt became all wet soon—you know the typhoon rain is not like the normal rain falling down straight. I wandered if I was just too brave walking on the street… I would say I deserve it if I was injured by falling debris. LOL~ Somehow too much courage might not be an advantage I guess… By the way I did regret that I forgot to take my cute BenQ 2300 with me to take some video. Maybe next time. :P ( aiyowei! Daring enough? )

Luckily I came home safely…got to change my clothes fast though. And we didn’t suffer from power outages like some other households in Taiwan. The only bad thing that happened to me today was…I was so careless while cooking lunch that my pinky on the right touched the edge of a very hot wok. -_-“ Very painful…I even got a boil on my pinky! ~~>_<~~ I deserved it too, since I know I am not good in cooking at all. But it’s not convenient to eat out in a typhoon day. That didn’t ruin my good mood for the rest of today, especially when I looked into the mirror and saw my skin’s so smooth and delicate for plenty of time to sleep these days. *chuckles* I don’t think I can sleep that much after school starts! Therefore, it’s a must to take as much R&R as I can, right? Being trapped at home for 2 days, I will go out to have some fun tomorrow! :D

Favorite toys of mine

Yes they are my favorite toys...antique teapots and tea cups, which came from the Jing De Town in China--the most famous place for making teapots and cups. The earth is the key: different earth for different tea leaves. The ones I am using are made of Zi Sha ( 紫砂 ), which are good for making the so-called "old tea", like Pu Er (普洱 ). *chuckles* The temperature of water is important too. If I make Pu Er tea, I'll keep the water in the kettle boiling. Well, the tea tastes real good! Especially after a nice, hearty dinner... It's sort of like a wonderful ending for the night. :D

Typhoon Day

A typhoon’s ( Aere #0417 ) is landing on the north of Taiwan. When I got up in the early morning, I heard the wind and rain, a bit stronger than the rain ( or showers ) we usually have in summer. So… yeah I know it’s better to stay home. *chuckles* But it’s not my style. :P Putting on a short skirt ( a smart choice in rainy days since wet pants always make my legs uncomfortable ) and taking a bigger umbrella ( not the light ones I use to block the burning sun ), I ‘bravely’ walked into the wind and rain. Wow… the streets looked so lonely today! Living in Taipei, everyone knows it’s more like a habit you have to look around and watch out, because of the busy traffic and a lot of pedestrians everywhere. Well…this time I felt relaxed, walking slowly, enjoying the loneliness in my favorite city. I looked up a bit, smiled to the sky, and felt the rain was cool…on my bare arms and feet ( I wore slippers, which are for outdoors ). I didn’t sing, in case I ruined the perfect silence around me…so content I got…

I think of a good friend, who lives in Ilan, the east of Taiwan, and also teaches at a public middle school. We were once colleagues for a few years. The reason we got to know each other better was both of us are vegetarians, and he often gave me a hand as I had some questions about computer stuff. However…what he influenced me most was not about computers, but his attitude toward life. He told me he had a painful childhood, not being loved and suffering from poverty. That’s why he figured out very early that one’s best friend is him/herself, and he seldom wasted money. *chuckles* He always teaches me how to save up money. He does that so well that he has bought a house near his school, and I kept him company when he came up to see the furniture exhibition at Taipei Trade Exhibition Hall. Being single, good-looking, rich…you know he has no gf so far. LOL~ He had an admirer, in fact…a teacher too, not at the same school. I asked him why he turned the lady down, and his reply was ‘urm…I didn’t think it’d better to live with her. It’s so tiring to look after another person. By the way I am studying for my masters…’ His point is living by himself is totally enjoyable, and he doesn’t think a woman would do him any good right now…same here. *chuckles* Neither do I. That’s why we joked around while talking on the phone, that we might get married a few years later since both are so picky, vegetarian, and we don’t want kids.( DINK is my cup of tea! ) We just need to work diligently and then larked around when we are on winter or summer vacation. Perfect match…NOT. Too bad he’s younger than me, and…shorter. *sighs…* :P Nothing is perfect, just like what I used to say.

So I got my favorite traditional Chinese breakfast, and bought newspaper on my way home. It’s nice to spend my day like this… nothing important to do. Eat, drink ( herb tea ), nap, watch some stuff, chat with friends, and so on. Previously my sis and I planned to go shopping today, but cancelled for this typhoon. As for the cell phone which ran out of battery and didn’t get charged, I think I am just too smart… LOL~ I have 3 cell phones, which means I have 3 numbers to use. The first # ( degree 1 ) is only for my family when I go traveling overseas. The second # ( degree 2 ) is for all my acquaintances IRL, including students and their parents. I take this celly with me most of the time and seldom switch if off. ( too troublesome, and I don’t get naughty calls often. I did get some, and I am good at dealing with such things… *winks* ) The third # ( degree 3 ) is only for friends I get to know from the Net. It’s a prepaid card, which can be thrown away anytime if I don’t think it’s necessary for me. So that’s why the 1st and 3rd are off. I am not to leave for another country, and I am sick of getting the 2 guys’ phone calls already. :P Let me live a lonely life for a while first… and I’ll take another new adventure! :D

Trying to get my photo done

My boy students who graduated last summer. we had a gathering at a shabu shabu restaurant. they become more mature! ( I am playing with Hello; see if I can post a photo onto my blog :P )

Chinese Valentine's Day

Here again…not diligent enough to blog last night. LOL~ Yesterday was the Chinese Lovers’ Day, 七夕 ( qi1 xi4 ) in Mandarin. For a woman like me, who got some suitors around IRL, it’s just too difficult to decide which one to go out with. It turned out to be that…urm…I switched off my cell phone and spent a wonderful Sunday with my family! OK I was just kidding… in fact I didn’t switch off my celly, but it ran out of battery and I didn’t charge it, that’s all. :P

I went out in the afternoon for a ‘black mass’, which means a funeral for us catholic. A friend’s father passed away. We practiced in the same choir for a period of time, so I thought I had to go and pray for him and his family. I didn’t feel like crying at such an occasion even as we went forward to spread some petals on the body in the coffin, but I did have the impulse to cry when I saw my friend and his family gave the last look at their family member before they were going to cover it… *sighs* Well I know nothing is permanent. Sorrow and pain are unavoidable sometimes. After saying goodbye to my other friends who were also present at the black mass, I went back home. You know there are some traditions for us in such a situation: someone who just attended a funeral cannot go home directly. A friend told me his knowledge about that was ‘to pick some leaves and throw them away.’ Mine is ‘hang around somewhere else for a while and then go home.’ I even know about another custom: use incense to ‘purify’ the person in front of the gate—let the smoke be around his/her body a while. I guess my western friends would feel :O if I told them so.

Talking about my favorite TV program on Sun. evening, Top of the Forbidden City, I am sorry I spelt it wrong on my last blog. The Chinese title is correct, but not the English translation. I took a careful look last night and found I was wrong. *chuckles* doesn’t matter—this is my blog. In this play there are some romantic scenes too, just like most of the series, no matter what language is used. The main characters, Scorpio, Sunny, and Shadow, are in a so called ‘triangle’ relationship, which is not surprising even in our real life. Sunny is Shadow’s good friend, always caring for her and, of course, having strong feelings toward her. They’ve known each other for long. But later on, Scorpio appeared, and Shadow had an immediate crush on him, even if Scorpio seemed cold to her from time to time… She still couldn’t forget about him. The lucky thing is Scorpio does have a liking to Shadow —he acted cold because of his attempt to accomplish something first. Somehow it’s not so lucky like in the play right? Once I found myself fond of a guy, after we had been good friends for quite a while. Too bad I was not the One he wanted. It was very painful to see him leave for another woman, who he immediately had a strong crush on just like the girl Shadow. Certainly I felt very bad…I trembled while he told me he’s to leave....But I didn’t shed a tear even that's the Fin. ( Sunny didn’t either. *chuckles* He even would like to help…how come so kind-hearted as me huh :P )

So yeah…my point to record this history about my failure in love ( LOL~ ) is we don’t need to feel shameful or whatsoever. It’s not anyone’s fault, but just not something that can be worked out, a relationship which is never meant to be. I feel lucky that I didn’t initiate any action there. Sure I sorrowed over my fate ( awww~ how come I couldn’t get him! ) for a moment, but things would just turn up right since time is the greatest healer. A beautiful young girl, who’s the daughter of 2 celebrities in Taiwan, ended her life by jumping down from a building, for her bf fell in love with other girls. Her bf’s photo was also in the newspaper…hmm…a gorgeous guy. So what? Necessary to kill herself and make her parents feel like hell? ( My mom had some comments like that, you know. :P ) Too bad or very lucky? I never feel it’s the end of the world if a man I like doesn’t like me. I think it’s his loss—doesn’t get a tall, pretty, good-figured, bright-thinking all the time, blah-blah…good woman. LOL~ ok ok being narcissistic again I know. But this is my monologue!!! So…I wish myself, and my good friends who don’t have lovers by now, all the best and good luck. Let us all live our days fully and happily every day! ^_^