Wishing you were somehow here again

You were once my one companion
You were all that mattered…
You were once a friend and father; then my world was shattered…
Wishing you were somehow here again
Wishing you were somehow near
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed
Somehow you would be here…
Wishing I could hear your voice again, knowing that I never would…
Dreaming of you won’t help me to do all that you dreamed I could…
Passing bells and sculpted angels, cold and monumental, seem, for you, the wrong companions
You were warm and gentle…
Too many years, fighting back tears
Why can’t the past just die?
Wishing you were somehow here again, knowing we must say goodbye…
Try to forgive, teach me to live, give me the strength to try!
No more memories, no more silent tears
No more gazing across the wasted years
Help me…
Say goodbye…

p.s. I sang this song while typing the lyrics, for a very dear friend of mine…it’s his birthday today. He was once very close to me, but left me for another world…My shi1xiong1 told me I had to let go the past. Everything’s fated. Yes I am always moving on, and being optimistic. Well I know my friend would like to see me living my life fully too. *taking a deep breath* I will try my best. :)